Turn the Page
People will inevitably be featured in the story of your life, it's up to you to either continue reading or change the chapter.
You don’t get to be mad at me. I have always been there for you. I have gone out of my way for you over and over again. Do you do the same for me? No, never. And yet i keep my mouth shut and say nothing about it. I am not in any way trying to say I’m perfect. But i honestly believe i have done everything i am capable of doing, to keep you in my life. The more i tried to keep you, the more you pushed me away. I have been more understanding and forgiving with you, then i was ever capable of being with anyone else. I have literally put myself through emotional hell for you. I’m not blaming you for this, because i chose that. I chose to allow you to walk all over me without ever saying a word. I did that because i wanted you in my life so badly. But you don’t get to be angry with me because I’ve finally decided that i can’t take it anymore. I can’t be the only one trying. It hurts too much. But apparently you don’t understand that. I care about you so much. You will always be on my mind, but i don’t know if I’ve ever actually been on yours, and i can’t be second best anymore. I’m tired of being second best to everyone. Especially you. So I’m letting this go. Never thought I’d say that, did you? I have to. I have to let this go because I’m not strong enough to handle it anymore. If you want me in your life, you need to prove it to me.
